Blink-182 Brand Hoppus reveals he was contemplating suicide after being diagnosed with cancer
The musician sat down with PEOPLE to share his journey with cancer, revealing that shortly after his diagnosis he was in a “dark place”.
“I was in our living room crying and saying to my wife, ‘I don’t know if I can do this,'” he recalled.
“She was like, ‘Well, what are you going to do, kill yourself?’ And that’s exactly what I thought. It was quite dark.
He continued: “It was a total regain consciousness moment.
“I was like, ‘What a thing to say.’ But also, what kindly thing to say, like, ‘get it, you whore baby. You have a form of combatable cancer. It’s gonna suck to get there, but go for it. I had to do the job.”
That of the group bassist-singer learned he had lymphoma after finding a lump on his shoulder in April 2021.
Mark even texted his doctor, joking that his lump was either a ‘pulled muscle’ or a ‘deadly lymphoma’.
But Mark, unfortunately, turned out to be correct, as the doctors found out the size of a lime tumors not only in his shoulder, but also in his neck and abdomen.
They informed Mark that he had stage 4 diffuse wide B-cell lymphoma, which can be treated with early diagnosis.
Despite hope for survival, Mark said the diagnosis sent him into a spiral of depression, but eventually he went into survival mode.
Mark had no intention of telling the public about his cancer journey, but the 50-Age accidentally posted a photo of her chemo chair to her close friends.
After the post, Mark was shocked by the overwhelming support he received from social media.
“I thought once people found out it would be like, ‘Ha ha, kiss my ass. You are going to die’ – just the pigsty internet side. Instead, everyone was saying, “You’re going to get through this,” he said.
After months of chemotherapy, which the musician described as “brutal”, doctors declared him cured of cancer in September last year.
At the time, he wrote via Instagram, “I just saw my oncologist and I’m cancer free!!
“Thank you God and the universe and friends and family and everyone who sent support and kindness and love.
“I still have to get my scan every six months and it will take me until the end of the year to get back to normal, but today is an amazing day and I feel so blessed. Can I get a W in chat?”
He also shared with the outlet that he was given a “second chance at life.”
While he said he still feels like a kid at heart, the musician is finally “glad” to be alive.